sad sad zoo

nearlymidnight @ 2007-07-20T10:04:00

2007-07-20T15:05:44Z

in case you have noticed my absense..
i moved,
again.

kathrynelise

don't expect anything extraordinary
this (like always) is more for me.

nearlymidnight @ 2007-03-27T21:38:00

2007-03-28T02:44:08Z

back and missing the ocean already. my skin is still peeling. boy is home for awhile and we've been spending our nights in the apartment with friendly faces and cold beer. his best friend repeats "i like her, i like this one." im gettin good at smiling and i never really know what to say.

nearlymidnight @ 2007-02-08T23:28:00

2007-02-09T05:55:34Z

Ramblings;
where are you spring?! my head is all scrambled with plans and post-its, so many things to accomplish in so little time!love has been post-poned for now, or at least until i've checked off everything on my list. on the bright side: mariah & i bought plane tickets for florida in march (a much needed) mini trip. so eager to feed my longing for the beach, sun and exploration. besides, the seemingly permenant dent in my bank account and my ongoing lonlieness from livin' the single life is in need of a getaway. not to mention my birthday/valentines day is in a few days which i am NOT in the least bit excited for. its awesome having a birthday on the most romantic day of the year- especailly when virtually all of your friends are happily in relationships and you are not. im counting on chinese takeout and ben & jerrys to be my only birthday company. but all is well.

nearlymidnight @ 2007-01-23T19:49:00

2007-01-24T01:50:28Z

whatever happened to me that made me become this incredibly sad&pathetic little girl has got to be stopped. i will remind myself everyday to try. so maybe i can finally do something right with my life.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-12-25T14:34:00

2006-12-25T20:34:49Z

i wrecked my car christmas eve from drunk driving. thank god im alive. now im in serious debt, my parents have completly lost hope and there is only tension while im at home. and its completly my fault. im failing over and over again. im ready for 2007. ive get to get it right this time.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-12-17T15:06:00

2006-12-17T21:06:11Z

"confront your fear about how it could be.Improvement is good."

i believe you are very correct, fortune cookie.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-12-13T22:19:00

2006-12-14T04:19:06Z

you can all delete me from your friends list. this has become more important for myself than anything else.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-10-27T20:47:00

2006-10-28T01:50:11Z

this picture pretty much sums up my life.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-10-08T09:51:00

2006-10-08T14:53:44Z

sometimes it's these nights that make me feel like i've lost who i am. i'm afraid no one will ever know how to love me. maybe i am just one of those girls, just a girl, always. and it's the same, this cycle. and i don't know if i can break it.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-09-07T20:41:00

2006-09-08T01:41:23Z

the end of an era.

nearlymidnight @ 2006-08-11T08:53:00

2006-08-11T13:56:50Z

i'm a fucking idiot

nearlymidnight @ 2006-04-15T19:30:00

2006-04-16T00:34:03Z

I'm back from Hawaii, which by the way (if you aren't already informed) is the most gorgeous place in the world. i have been spoiling myself rotten: making rounds at the local market vendors, getting covered in sand and working on my tan which unfortunatly makes me more mexican looking then beautiful beach-babe. all i can say is: amazing! and what a life!

nearlymidnight @ 2005-10-02T11:04:00

2005-10-02T16:13:36Z

UPDATE?!

Pretty much my camera(s) are broken and the money is not there to have them repaired, considering i just spent $1,000 on my car which that money was hardly there as well. my chinese fortune was the same as last year, always looking for a thrilling time. i'm boring, my hair is finally long, and boring. but i'm not pregnant. i want to jump off this rock in the middle of the trees and the leaves and just float away. i love this boy and he loves me more then i can handle sometimes. last night i was so wasted my insides knotted, me again, in the same place, with my head over a toliet.

still looking for the creme filling,
k.elise.

nearlymidnight @ 2005-08-30T19:32:00

2005-08-31T00:33:13Z

still looking for that creme filling.

nearlymidnight @ 2005-08-11T13:54:00

2005-08-11T18:55:19Z

off to the beach:

where i hope the sand&waves will calm my nerves,
slow down the thoughts
and ease the pain.

nearlymidnight @ 2005-06-06T22:23:00

2005-06-07T03:22:34Z

i'll be home when it's over.

nearlymidnight @ 2005-06-05T21:15:00

2005-06-06T02:16:14Z

nearlymidnight @ 2005-05-31T19:44:00

2005-06-01T00:43:13Z

nearlymidnight @ 2005-04-04T19:22:00

2005-04-05T00:23:18Z

This is it, this is it. i have found the key and the knob turns.

nearlymidnight @ 2005-03-25T11:30:00

2005-03-25T17:30:10Z

nearlymidnight @ 2005-02-21T14:51:00

2005-02-21T20:52:26Z

as empty as it seems.

nearlymidnight @ 2004-12-22T11:07:00

2004-12-22T17:07:32Z

the fourtune teller was out last night. a scrawny man in a tweed hat.
he said my name meant pure.leaning out of a car window pure,
smoking a parliament pure. "i am your opus the pure gold baby"